All things revealed

I don't deserve it.

I alienated people.

I made people uncomfortable

It was and has never been returned.

It was always just me.

Feelings vented and heard.

Hmmm...I'm thinking if I left out anything else. How do I feel? First, I was dumfounded. Then I felt hurt and disappointed. Now, I'm just trying to deal and get by. But maybe with all this out in the open, maybe it'll be better.

Yesterday, I decided to have a rave/rant celebration. Went out with my friends and had dinner at Oody's. I still haven't learned my lesson, still ordered my usual drink (<- way too expensive in this place). We had a blast talking and just kidding around.

After dinner we headed out to Ice Bar. We spent the rest of the night drinking, dancing and kidding around. After what happened earlier in the night, I needed something like last night.

Ok so I got drunk...loved everyone...got a little confrontational...cried my heart out...but then again everyone is entitled to a night like last night every now and then. At the end of the night, I had a blast. I dunno if it's a good thing or a bad thing but despite my drunken state last night I still remember everything that was said and done. I do have to say thanks and much love to everyone who joined in the celebration. And of course, much love to Doths, Tabel and Rene for letting me take a cab and for making sure I actually got in the correct cab. Lastly, thanks to Tiny (<- owe you big time!) for letting me crash last night and most of today.